Looking Forward To Things

I can't believe that I am thinking about him less and less these days and that is a good thing. I have prayed for that and I hope that I can fully go ahead and forget about any feelings I have for him. 

And then today, an elementary classmate created a groupchat. He told us that one of our common friends had finally decided to come home by May this year and live here. It is good news and it means that I would have more people to hang out with. I also am happy for him and his family because it is much better to stay here than be in Manila, given these trying times. 

Anyhow, that classmate also said that he kind of "looks up" to me because of the things I do and what I have done. Well, he may still be clouded by the fact that I was once one of the top students back when we were still classmates. What he does not know is what I have gone through after that. I have been through a lot. And I mean A LOT. I just choose to keep going because there is no other way to go but that.

What he said made me happy and made me realize that there are really people who can really see you in a different light when you have been doubting yourself for too long or you just feel like you are not that good enough. There are people who will see you and tell you what you need to hear. The universe really knows what to give you and I am thankful for that. 

See, this classmate and I haven't really been that close. The common connections that we have is that we have been classmates in elementary (but only for a few years) and that we have common friends. That's it. But to hear that he "looks up" to me is a big thing for me today. 

Anyhow, we have been planning on going out for some unli-wings. And also planning on going out for some swimming. Yeah, that could work. I have something to look forward to. Something to take me out of this monotony. 

And maybe, just maybe, my friends may have friends who can be interested in me. LOL. I know I told myself that I would need to stop falling for people but yeah. We'll see. I'll try not to do that. Until it is real. I'm not sure how much more my heart can take.